i never did anything wrong

not feeling happy today :( probably coz i didn't have that much sleep last night and had a recurring dream. I wish I could just stop thinking about all this shit that somehow always makes its way to me. 

lets hope tomorrow is a better day

supersize our tragediiiiieees

is there a certain food that make you poo more than usual? mine is chocolate...yupppp...chocolate.

anywho moving on from pooing! 

i found sooooooooo much banana related food yesterday!! HAPPYYY!!! :D well it wasn't thaaat much hehe. only two items! 

i have been looking for perkynana for aaages! they played a very important part in my life when i was young lol. always used to eat them after school at my dads shop :') so goods! and i finally found it :D 

last night before waffle and rugby night with friends we went to get ingredients and nutella for my korean friend who's dad doesn't let him eat it lol and while looking for the nutella i found this chocolate banana spread! OMG :') who would've thought there would be something like this! ahhh i was in heaven. Haven't tried it yet thoough! got no bread! ahh! 

before the rugby started we played pokemonopoly! its sooo awesome! although it took me ages to get through the first round on the board coz i went to jail on the first round and then when i finally got out i went to jail again lol! sighhzz finally made it to the second round but then we stopped playing for waffles and rugby xP

i was charmander :D 

hahahaha took this photo yesterday morning. i woke up and my dog was like this on my sofa haha. the life of a doggy 

i'm so tired atm :( had one hour less sleep due to daylight saving and been studying for the past 2 hours T_T

can't wait to go to sleep tonight :')

we need each other coz no-ones meant to be alone

lovely night it is mateys?

another night of doing nothing...wanted to study but its impossible to study at home! impossible i say!

surrounded by food. a barking dog *hits dog* haha jokes jokes i would NEVER hit my dog. only figuratively :). found so many other things to do in the house besides study OH DEAR.

learnt some new songs on guitar :') finally making use of it after all these years. makin' mama proud :')

watched some hells kitchen, each season gets more boring its so repetitive! repetitive i say! but still kinda pulls you in to watch it...or was that because i was procrastinating? HUMMM

i changed the parting of my fringe so i decided to camwhore with it :D

don't mind the photos :D

me thick moustache :{D

lol this one looks weird...hmm what kind of look is this

if i were a boy :D

me second moustache :{) i tried to leave it on my upper lip without my hands but it was impossible....impossible i say! ok i have to stop doing that =.=

and a normal one! :) just to make up for the other photos :3

everyday i try to look my best, even though inside i'm such a mess

i am enjoying poo analogys at the moment!

me and my friend use a couple such as "releasing the hostages, depositing the money in the bank, dropping the kids off at the pool and putting a second batch of cookies in the oven" lol. just makes life so much more amusing...althouugh...my life is pretty amusing already xP

accomplished ABSOLUTELY NOThiNG TODAaAAY! will study later :'(

THE PAST WAS BOUGHT UP TODAY SIGH . i get over it then someone brings it up and i get all confused again...am i over it...i dunno...i thought i was and then someone brings the subject up and you just dunno what you think anymore..

and then i read this post i wrote on tumblr a few months ago ..and it just reminds how blessed I am...time to quit complaining!

I have to say these past two months have been like a freaking emotional roller coaster, always worrying, hoping, heart beating fast, laughing one minute and crying the next.

I used to barely cry and just laugh all the time and now it’s like everything just came at once and bombarded my emotions, from when my grandpa passed away and i couldn’t go to his funeral in singapore, when rachel left nz and when the relationship between us just wasn’t working out…i thought i could just “smile” everything off and just make jokes about random things..but i was only fooling myself, when i got home i would ball my eyes out

PTL for the epiphany God gave me in the shower today! I was just standing there soaking in the hot water for ages when I finally clicked..despite what has happened in the past two months all these things seemed to happen for a reason, i realised the mistakes i had made and to make sure that those mistakes wouldn’t be made again, i also feel i’ve grown into become a stronger person (emotionally not physically ofc —) and most of all i love God more than I ever have right now, when you’re at your lowest point you just realise all the amazing blessings you have, the fact that you have your health, a great family and such good friends AND THE BEST IS YET TO COME :)

moving on! as i should! hmm what did i accomplish today? NOTHING! nothing is correct..days not over! hopefully i'll accomplish something soon....haaa...sure....

so i went into uni early again..but this time it was for a much better reason....JOJO'S GRADUATION!! :D WEEHEHEHE! the sun shone for beautiful jojo's graduation PTL although it was so windy aiyooo. anywho we took photos in an art gallery..i shall put some up if i can get them off co. shes such a professional :') proud of her! after taking photos we went to eat at neighbours cafe and was mind blown at the way you order your food :O mind = blown.

each dish has these little cards next to it and you bring it up to the cashier to order and pay for it! how cute!

ended up getting dumplings in beef soup, i just like it coz of the pickled veges in it hehehehe

so after lunch i was supposed to go to class while jojo and rm went to the ceremony....but i didnt /=.=\ . saw sophie and went for a walk with her hehe. then to home i went! where there was an old asian guy sitting behind me on the bus and started snoring haha made me giggle. my ipod ran out of battery earlier so i had to go through the whole bus ride without music T_T first world problems these days! sigh! anywho white gangster boy came on the bus and played his music out loud although it wasn't good music T_T

bus ride wasn't so bad in the end..txtd the whole time having an amusing conversation lol

in context to the asian man snoring i tell my friend:

 lol the asian man behind me is snoring and he just snorted

friend: lol the man. doesn't give a crap what the rest of the world thinks

me: a fearless creature from the depths of asia

friend:a mythical beast

me: awakening from his slumber

friend: all flee before him in abject terror

me: the end. fin.

hahah yes yes it sounds lame now but it was amusing at the time! :D

time to study.....hummmm ...

bye!

you met me during a very weird point in my life

currently sitting in ic2 couches blogging from my phone coz i can't find a free computer (more like i can't be bothered heh). Anyway over half the people on the couches are couples t=.=t and the one on the couch beside me just made out and seriously no one wants to see it =.= unless there's some creep in the corner that gets turned on by it. Anywho got me thinking im gonna die alone *forever alooone. ok thats a bit of an exaggeration. I've had no interest in anybody since my last relationship which was.....i dunno...couple months ago?..ahh look at me getting all sentimental now. Ugh i'm so tired, been at uni for too long already, my uni days are normally 4 hours max lol. This morning I woke up all prepared to go into uni earlier to hand in my essay. This whole time I was thinking it had to be handed in before 1030 this morning and randomly on the buss I was questioning myself is the hand in time 10 or 1030...why am i only thinking about this now?! so I txted my friend in class and he said it was 10 =.= shit...I was in agony the whole time on the bus hoping the bus would make it to uni by 10 and praise da looord it did!  I even told my friend a while ago it was due at 10 so why the heck did i keep thinking it was 1030? UGH mind games these days. sometime my brain is so retarded.  sighz after getting to uni at 10 I had nothing to do until 2, imagine the extra sleep i could've gotten if i didn't have to hand in my essay so early! crazy lecturer. Listened to lecture recordings up until 11 and steph joined and we began watching youtube lol ended up getting not much study done, especially when I found out my test this week is open book lol yuss. Steph had class at 12 so I did not study yet again and met up with Sophie to do some shopping in the city (the only good thing about uni being in the city) although I refrained from buying anything whilst money flowed out of her like a running tap. After that I finally went to my class at 2 and I must say that would've been one worth skipping. It ended at 3 and now I am currently waiting for my free ride home with Steph and James yay! saved a bus ride wehehe

regrets and mistakes are memories made

random lyrics from a song i heard.. i don't remember which song it even was..
 currently watching the proposal on tv but started to blog as well due to my short attention span x.x saw an ad on tv for condoms just now and realised it's the first condom ad i've seen on tv lol

had church today where there was fundraising for the church selling toasted sandwiches yum! had sweetcorn and cheese omg cheese is so delicious these days but sooo expensive :( speaking of cheese i was feeling curious and added some cheese to my fried rice for dinner just now o.o

it actually tasted quite nice :D

went to get ice cream at church after for dessert at :quirk once again

i had rainbow and banana, so colourful hehe :D

 Janells ice cream!

 hehe & co's ice cream :D look at the matching colours! even her ice cream is designer!

 shaped my ice cream till it looked like an onion :P looks like a mosque too and co called it mosque cream lol

ahh looking at this ice cream makes me want MOAAR! 

heh heh maybe i'll buy one at uni tomolo

ugh gotta go in at 10am to hand in my assignment :( i don't have class until 2 on Mondays x.x

hmm yeah so we decided to hang out in the car boot after xD

i look really scary in this pic according to roosie but its my normal faaace~~~~~ hehe jks jks

wawawa goodnight \@.@/

560/2000 words T_T

this pic never fails to make me laugh

omg i think i'm a natural beat boxer...yesterday night i randomly decided to beat box to my dog and hooo my gosh i sounded goooood D: is this my calling? is it? oh gimme a siiiiign~~~~ lol just kidding but yeaaah its enjoyable too lol letting out my stress via beat boxing :\

lol i thought i read that being born in winter decreases the risk of mental health disorders but when i read over it again it said increases instead of decreases :\ haiiiiiiz

woke up eaaaarly this morning haha well not really, 9am wake up la, stay in bed for another hour scrolling through my txts messages..threaded messaging is so handy :))) read through my txt and whatsapp convos , they make me lol, i must say i have the most amusing random conversations hahaha i enjoy this one from a friend

me: now why would i have kumura if i don't even have a potato?
friend: coz you might be tangata  whenua

if you don't live in nz you probably wont get this lol maori people eat a lot of kumura and potatoes and tangata whenua is the maori term for.....maori's? lol yeah its totally random

i guess i should continue with my essay now :(( i'm so stuck for what to write

ho maaaai

ok so this is already my third blogpost for today (seeee told you i missed blogging :P)...i've been stuck on my laptop all day procrastinating writing my essay ...introduction is done :') and nothing else will probly get done until tomolo...yup...i feel socially deprived after staying home all day, txting and whatsapp does no justice, no worries though...i have youth group tonight yay! 

ok i have aloooot of random photos 

homg durian cupcakes mel made me for my birthday :') they have such a beautiful shape! how does she do it..

cream puffs i made for church! inside was banana cream hehehe...found out our pastor also loves banana! 

banana split from quirk! new ice cream shop, although their banana ice cream doesn't come close to the one in town 

a very angry cake i made....for my dads birthday this year lol

hehe i only took this pic coz i love the colour combo minus my fat thighs..speaking of fat..i downloaded this app on my phone called daily workout and there's one for each part of your body so i got the butt, leg, ab and arm..and omg the ab one hurts so much..after one minute i die...the pain is intenese....i have very low pain tolerance -.-

 

ok so i have a 50bux voucher for botany town centre but the sad thing is i can never find anything that captures my eye in botany to spend money on until i saw this real pretty bag...so sad the price is $160 and its not even a popular brand, can't afford even with my voucher T_T one day it will go on sale..and one day it shall be mine *mini evil laughs* 

ok..so the other day i was making french toast and being careless because i can am, i just dumped the toast in the hot pan..needless to say the oil splashed everywhere mainly getting a lot of small droplets on my right arm =.= so small yet so painful :'( and today i got a sudden itch on my upper right arm..without thinking i just scratched it in fast motion n bam! the burnt skin peeled off & even though it was so tiny it hurt like a *****..so now it is like this and before when i was showering i avoided getting water on it coz water made it hurt even more omgosh whyyyyy...anyhow i didn't wash my right arm today so beware *snickers*

polka dotted my nails long time ago already haha, was my first time and did it with the dotting tool although it still came out quite ugly..anywho i shall get better! gonna do my nails again after blogging..had one from chinaglaze on before called snowglobe but got so bored at uni i scratched all the glitter off =.= and now it looks like snake skin D:

ok so one of my friends moved to australia at the beginning of this year and this is how we keep in touch lol, through the power of this video chat thing called oovoo..i think its way better than skype..simple and straight-foward..haha below is one of our whatsapp convos i think my awkward moment joke was funniest of all....can you guess?? it's the first one lol ..it has not happened to me before! maybe when i was a baby though? :D

i very much enjoy this photo! how creative it is :L my red polaroid camera my friends got me for my 20th :) if you don't notice it there's a person inbetween me & my friend haha i didn't even realise until someone said lol . my mirror needs cleaning /-.-\

ok so everytime something or someone bugs me this image comes up in my mind haha and then it stops me getting angry! haha! works like a charm ;) this lady makes my day i must say :L

ok so thats some random photos from the past month lol going beyond that is too far to remember 

before i forget i want to show off my interior designing skills hehe

played a lot of sims social in the mid-sem break and this is the result of two weeks into the game..i'm not as addicted anymore xD

ok i'm finally getting off blogger!

ughhh i really don't understand my dad sometimes he's so difficult most of the time i just choose to ignore him nowadays..if he has a bad day at work he'll come home all angry and take it out on whoever's home and just yell/nags/boss them around..i should pray for his short temper..he made me so ....

i dunno....this meme expresses it i guess

yesterday i told him i'm already not going to uni coz i can listen to the lectures online (save money & time & don't wanna go out in this windy weather, sneezing so much lately x.x) then he comes home from work jus then and asks why i'm not at uni.. i tell him i already told you yesterday and he asks me again angrily and i say the same thing again but louder and then he goes WHY YOU SHOUT AT ME IM NOT IN A GOOD MOOD.....wth just roll my eyes & continue with my work..why all the males in this household like to cause trouble all the time siiighh i want to go uni now \-.-/

laoshi hao

laoshi hao...just something random i remembered from my two weeks in chinese class xD.i think i had a dream last night where i fluently spoke mandarin lol thats happened before but instead i was playing the keyboard in church service & i can't even play lol

status is....currently procrastinating..it's only 11:11am and i've already had lunch zzzz thinking of having dessert soon too humm banana yoghurt or a real banana?! :O bananas are life. skipped uni today...only 2hrs of classes which are recorded so why bother :D time to start the weekend early! mehehe but...i gotta do that stupid essay x.x *opens bucket with durian wafers to have a sniff* they bring such happy tears to my eyes :') i don't get why people don't like the smell of durians..it's better than smelling a rotting animal or smelly socks or my brothers fart to be honest 

cleaned my room the other day....and put in a preeety good effort in it as well i must say

this is before ( i can't believe i lived like an animal these past few months /-.-\

i fail at taking panaramamamamamam whatever it's called photos boohoo

and....

this is after lol...after 10hours to be more specific 

suprisingly i only had one medium sized bag of rubbish compared to my usual one big garbage bag ..lol my dad always looks at me suspiciously when i take out trash from the room like "what are you hiding in there? getting rid of the evidence etc." =.=

ok i shall start my essay! lies...im going to have dessert, shower, read some blogs then i will start my essay :D

bye!

blogger!

blogger ohhhh blogger please forgive me for neglecting you all these months!! i suddenly miss blogging so muuch :') it's just not the same as tumblr! *kisses ground where blogger stands* i will never leave you again! i promise!

a lot happened since i stopped blogging but i'm not gonna be bothered filling in any details coz i don't remember most of them loooool except that i had a really good first semester :D second semester seems more boring..everyones so studious! they must not have had very good marks last semester heehee jokes :p i shall study a bit toooooo but not right now :( i feel so demotivated after getting my essay mark back today ugh no motivation to start the other essay now T_T

saw clouds in the shape of turtles and it looked like they were racing each other!

dinner time now!
bye! until tomolooo ^^